Loving you is hurt sometimes…. I am standing here… Yups, itu adalah penggalan dari lagunya D’Cinnamons, loving you. Nggak tau kenapa, akhir akhir ini seneng banget ama lagu itu. Udah lama g nulis blog juga gara gara lagu itu (llah, apa hubungannya nulis blog ama lagu?)

Cieee.. patah hati nih ceritanya? Bukan mas, bukan patah hati, catat ya, tapi broken heart, jadi kalo dibahasa indonesiakan jadi hati yang patah, bukan patah hati (halah, ra penting..). Yah, begitulah, cross bottom yang udah 9 tahun aja bisa gagal, apalagi saia yang baru 2 tahun,, apalagi si jon yang cuman 9 Bulan, hahahahahahaha…

Terus? udah bubaran dong ama yang diatas? Ya nggak lah mbak, KTP saia masih tertulis islam kok, belum bubaran beneran.. Cuman kadang kadang lupa sholat (kadang ya, ingat, kadang kadang aja, kalo septo ato jon sih, memang sering). Lha terus apa hubungannya ama broken heart dong mas?

Yah, it just broken. Titik. Gitu aja sih. Broken wae. Putus? Llah, apa sih artinya status, wong bukan istri juga kok, yang penting hati. Kalau hati sudah tidak bisa lagi, buat apa dipaksain, ya nggak?

Kalo ditanya, sakit apa nggak sih? Ya jelas aja sakit lah.. Bayangin aja, 2 tahun ngejalanin semuanya bareng bareng, susah ama seneng, nggak pernah ada masalah yang berarti… Terus tiba tiba dijatuhin dari atap gedung? Gimana nggak mati coba? Iya, kalo gedungnya cuman lantai 1 atau dibawahnya ada trampede sih, nggak mati. Tapi klo gedungnya Lantai 24? Yah, mungkin nggak mati sih, cuman mecedel (kayak babi dilindas buldozer, kekekekeke).

Anyway, sakit ato nggak, show must go on (katanya Queen). Tapi karena saia nanti jadi King (bukan radja, raja racun, apalagi raja singa ya..), ya jadinya show juga must go on (llah, opo bedane jal?). Yah, pokoknya, hidup harus jalan terus lah.. Masak gara gara hal beginian harus bunuh diri sih? Mending bunuh ayam, terus disate, ya nggak?

Well.. just remembered her last word.. “I’m not that good for you”… klo dalam bahasa cewek sih artinya jadi “You’re noot good enough for me”.. To bad, isn’t it? It will be hard to find someone like you again.. But I wish there is more person like you in this world. Just need little hard work to find another, right?

Loving you is hurt sometimes... But i'm still loving you..

Sebenernya ngga ada yang penting yang mau kuceritain sih. Tapi berhubung blog nya udah vakum berhari hari (atau berminggu minggu?), tetap harus ada yang ditulils. Tul nda? Keinget juga si, kata katanya seseorang (entah siapa, lupa, ada yang tahu?) yang bilang kalo “Sampaikanlah, walau hanya satu ayat”. Mangkanya, karena itu saiya sampaikan, walau hanya satu ayat.

Kemaren saiya sempat sakit 1 minggu. G enak pek, sakit tu, yaqin, g direkomendasikan wis. Karena tempat saya training tidak bisa memberikan ijin sakit loyalitas saiya pada perusahaan sangat tinggi, saiya paksakan untuk masuk training. Kronologisnya begini. Duh sek gatel, tak kukur kukur dulu.

Tanggal 29 Feb, karena di kosan g ada mainan (baca: komputer), akhirnya kuputuskan untuk menempuh perjalanan panjang sejauh jarak antara mipa selatan dengan parsley di jakal. Sebenernya bisa aja naek metromini, yang full AC (Angin Cendela) dan full Music (bob marley ala blok m), tapi gara garanya saiya lagi pengen olahraga (baca: pengen ngirit), akhirnya diputuskan untuk menempuh perjalanan mencari kitab suci hiburan malam dengan berjalan kaki.

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I arrived at Gambir Station at 19 pm , 29 Jan. I was looking around for a taxi. Someone offer for a taxi. I asked him, “It is a blue bird taxi?”. “No.” , he answered. I said, “I’m sorry sir, I’m looking for a blue bird taxi”. Surprisingly, he replied with shouting (in Indonesia) “Dasar banci, badan doang aja yang gedhe, banci !!”. It means (kinda) : damn you, fucking transexual. What a shit. Being intimidated at my first step in Djakarto? Damn..

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It’s just hard to say goodbye..

It’s just,, I’ll be missing you,, really…

Thank you for everything, Jogja..

Farewell…

Jogjakarta, 28 January 2008, my last post as jogja citizen

There is a lot of things that i’d like to share. But I’m too tired to write.. Well, I think I’ll just edit this post later. See ya..

What a sick week,

GSM modem, annoying MySQL Clustering and Partitioning, a sleepless night,,, hweeeeeh,,, dammit…

But at least, i’m back to my normal life, hehehe…

Sorry sweetheart, i didn’t meant it, really…..

But

Life,
Is to do our best….

No matter what you thinkin,
No matter what you did,
No matter how long i have to wait,

Just believe me,
It wont change my feeling to you, even just a bit …

I’ve got a new monitor,
Dunno how, but yesterday my monitor changed from GTC .28 “14 into GTC millenia semi flat 17″
Hurray…

mencintai seseorang adalah hal yang indah
melihat senyumnya adalah kado yang indah
mendengar suaranya adalah lagu yang indah
menyayangi seseorang adalah jalan yang indah
betapa cinta itu membuyarkan kita membuat kita terbelenggu keindahan untuk sesaat atau selamanya

mencintai memang indah

tapi

bisa tersenyum melihat orang yang kita cintai berjalan bersama orang lain,,,

,,,adalah hal yang lebih indah lagi,,,

transated to english :

Loving someone is beautiful..
Saw her smile is a beautiful present…
Hear her voice is a beautiful song…
Loving someone is a beautiful way…

How love can confusing us
making us bind in sweetness
for a moment or forever…

Loving is beautiful

but

being able to smile when seeing someone whom we love, walking with other people,,,

,,,is something that even more beautiful,,,

(credit:AyaCoolz@padmanaba.forum)

to Knup : U never walk alone… we always by your side… that’s what friend for….

well,, actually, i’m sleep at daylight… hehe.. looks like an owl isn’t it?

another whatever… because of too many academic tasks…

what a sick life again… hope it will restore soon…

Dunno what to do right now…

So many task… So Little Time…

whatever…

I’m sick… yes.. it’s make me sick…

Damn it….. I’m really sick…..

Dunno what i say…

Dunno why i’m like this…

What about you? What do you choose…

Well… whatever… at least i’m alive…

I want start to find more about bayes when i took desicion support system course. The most painful thing is i got “statistical method” categories in final project. I’m bad when dealing with math or statistic. It’s really sucks. Morover, i didn’t have enough time at the beginning. So i let my team, tiwi(oh.. god… not again…), hanna, rina, and denny from statistic to made first progress.

Presentation before the mid exam was made by denny. I didn’t get the point though, cuz he is using anava method (it’s really complicated shit). I’m really don’t get the idea of anava. I’m afraid that thing is unapplicable in our project.

Time for made the final project is nearer every day. Luckily, i have some extra time to made progress with bayes. After searching and searching, i found that the easiest thing is create application with naive bayes classifier.

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Basicly, my blog is divide into two categories. My and myself categories is my writing bout my self, bout what i’m think of this world, and bout my feeling. *sigh* . So don’t be surprised if sometimes i may something like f**k or sh*t and so on *sigh again* . Other categories is computer science, i write bout anything that related to Information Technology, like my project, new technology, what i’m learning, here.

If you wanna know more about me, see about me pages or email me at bramantyo[dot]erlangga[at]yahoo[dot]com , or YM! me at spyoff.

And last but not least, i wanna say thanks to :

1. My God, Allah swt. (altough i’m not a very religius man *sigh*)
2. My Phrophet, Rasulullah Muhammad saw.
3. My Father in heaven. (I’m moslem u know, don’t think something funny)
4. My Family.
5. AK-14 (now it’s 76-B though) Family, a place where i’m feel like me.
6. Computer Science 2003 Family.
7. Computer Science 2004 Family.
8. All Computer Science Family (for what i’m writing those twice?).
9. Wahyu Wijanarko, for inspiring me to build this web.
10. Global Intermedia Family (Lot of thanks).
11. Many other that i can’t write here.
12. Of course, thanks to myself (it’s a narcism!!!! narcis rules!!!)